𝓒𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓭𝔂 𝓟𝓵𝓪𝔂𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽

Yeah, most of my life's full of sad days
Started at a young age
Yeah, bought a house but I've been livin' on stage
Tryna find the real me, I ain't found it yet
Wake up every morning feelin' like I'm guilty
Talk to God, "Can you hear me?"
Lately, I'm a mess
I don't want no one to help me
Yeah, I don't want no one to help me and

If you think I make decisions based off of what you think, then you're wrong
Can't nobody think for me, I got my own thoughts
Sometimes you don't know what you had until it's all gone, 'til it's all gone
If I took the hand that was dealt me then I would be nowhere in life
Yeah, I had to think smart
Threw away the deck and got my own cards
Long before I had the money to afford a car

I–I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me
Yeah, I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me
Followin' my dreams
Yeah, I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me
Yeah, I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me
Followin' my dreams
Yeah, I've been doin' me

Most of my life's full of regrets
Things I wanna take back, yeah
Wrote you a letter, wish that I had never sent that
Didn't even make sense, I don't even know
All I know is I get lower on the weekends
They tell me I should make friends, I just sit at home
Lately, I've been off the deep end, yeah
I've been off the deep end and

If you think that I'm 'bout to change who I am just for you then you're so wrong
As I kid I built a house around my broke cars
Sometimes you don't know what you had until it falls apart, 'til it falls apart
If I took the hand that was dealt me then I would be nowhere in life
Yeah, I had to think smart
Threw away the deck and got my own cards
Long before I had the money to afford a car

I've been doin' me (oh)
I've been doin' me
Yeah, I've been doin' me (I have been)
I've been doin' me
Followin' my dreams
Yeah, I've been doin' me (followin' my)
I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me (I've been followin' my)
Yeah, I've been doin' me
Followin' my dreams
Yeah, I'm just doin' me
Yeah, I'm just doin' me

Yeah, I'm reminiscin' back to both of us laughin'
Playin' old records thinkin' every one of 'em's classic
Windows down, we on the street up in Michigan rappin'
We talked about it, but never really knew it could happen
My confidence about as low as the gas is
We didn't have the money for it, so we'd turn the key backwards
And sit in parking lots for hours 'til the battery crashes
I think that we related 'cause both of us were lookin' for answers
A couple months ago I drove into Gladwin, got me all in my feelings
It's somethin' 'bout bein' somewhere that's familiar
Pull in the gas station, open up the tank then I fill it then laugh
Would I move back? Mm, not in a million, but I appreciate the memories that we had
I know you've been callin', sorry I never call back
I know I've been distant, you know I never meant that
You can tell the family how I'm doing if they ask
I'm just doin' me

Yeah, what's your definition of success? (ay)
I don't trust the thoughts that come inside my head (woo)
I don't trust this thing that beats inside my chest
Who I am and who I wanna be cannot connect, why?
Don't think I deserve it? You get no respect (woo)
I just made a couple mil', still not impressed
Let You Down goes triple platinum, yeah, okay, okay, I guess (ay)
Smile for a moment then these questions startin' to fill my head, not again!
I push away the people that I love the most, why? (woo)
I don't want no one to know I'm vulnerable, why? (woo)
That makes me feel weak and so uncomfortable, why? (ay)
Stop askin' me questions, I just wanna feel alive
Until I die, this isn't Nate's flow (woo)
Just let me rhyme, I'm in disguise
I'm a busy person, got no time for lies, one of a kind
They don't see it, I pull out they eyes, I'm on the rise!
I've been doin' this for most my life with no advice (woo)
Take my chances, I just roll the dice, do what I like
As a kid, I was afraid of heights, put that aside
Now I'm here and they look so surprised, well so am I, woo!
They don't invite me to the parties but I still arrive
Kick down the door and then I go inside
Give off that "I do not belong here" vibe
Then take the keys right off the counter, let's go for a ride
Why do y'all look mortified? (ay)
I keep to myself, they think I'm sorta shy, organized
Let You Down's the only song you've heard of? Well then you're behind (woo)
Story time, wish that I could think like Big Sean does, but I just can't decide (aah)
If I should stick my knife inside of Pennywise
I, I don't care what anybody else thinks, lies (haha)
I do not need nobody to help me, lies
I kinda feel guilty 'cause I'm wealthy, why?
I don't understand, it's got me questionin' like, "Why?
Just tell me why, not back to this flow
Inside I feel divided
Back when I ain't had a dime, but had the drive
Back before I ever signed, I questioned life, like, "Who am I, man?" Woo!
Nothin' to me's ever good enough
I could be workin' for twenty-four hours a day and think I never did enough
My life is a movie but there ain't no tellin' what you're gonna see in my cinema (no)
I wanna be great but I get it in the way of myself
And I think about everything that I could never be
Why do I do it though? Ay, yeah
Why you always lookin' aggravated?
Not a choice, you know I had to make it
When they talk about the greatest, they gon' probably never put us in the conversation
Like somethin' then I gotta take it
Write somethin' then I might erase it
I love it, then I really hate it
What's the problem, Nathan? I don't know
I know I like to preach to always be yourself (yeah)
But my emotions make me feel like I am someone else
Me and pride had made a pact that we don't need no help
Which feels like I'm at war inside myself but I forgot the shells
I hold my issues up for all to see, like show and tell
A lot of people know me, but not a lot know me well
Hold my issues up for all to see, like show and tell
A lot of people know me, but they don't know me well..

Just in case my car goes off the highway
Or the plane that I get on decides that it's my last day
I want you to know when you're alone and you feel afraid
You're not the only person in the world that isn't okay
There's millions of us just like you, like you, like you :)
Just like you, like you
There's millions of us just like you, like you, like you :)
Just like you, like you (you, you, you)
Yeah
Everybody falls sometimes
Just remember that that's alright
It's the rainy days that give us love for the sun
And if it isn't, I guess I'll be fine believing it does, oh yeah
Everybody falls sometimes
Just remember that that's alright
It's the lows in life that make you cherish the highs
And if isn't, I guess I'll be fine believing a lie

 

When did I become so numb?

کِی اینقدر بی‌حس شدم؟

When did I lose myself?

کِی خودم را از دست دادم؟

All the words that leave my tongue

تمام کلمه‌هایی که از زبانم جاری میشوند،

Feel like they came from someone else

حس میشود که از کسی دیگرند. (کس دیگری آنها را گفته‌است.)

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

Where are my feelings?

احساساتم کجایند؟

I no longer feel things

مدت طولانی‌ست که چیزی را حس نکردم.

I know I should

میدانم که باید [حس کنم].

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

Where is the real me?

منِ واقعی کجاست؟

I’m lost and it kills me inside

من گمشده‌ام و این مرا از درون می‌کُشد.

I'm paralyzed

من فلج‌شده‌ام.

When did I become so cold?

کِی این‌قدر سرد شدم؟

When did I become ashamed? (oh)

کِی خجالت زده شدم؟

Where's the person that I know?

کجاست آن شخصی که می‌شناختمش؟

They must have left

همهٔ آنها باید بروند.

They must have left

تمام آنها باید بروند،

With all my faith

با تمام اعتماد من.

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

Where are my feelings

احساساتم کجایند؟

I no longer feel things

خیلی وقت است چیزی را حس نکردم.

I know I should

میدانم که باید [حس کنم].

I'm paralyzed

من فلج‌شده‌ام.

Where is the real me

منِ حقیقی کجاست؟

I’m lost and it kills me inside

من گم شده‌ام و این مرا از درون می‌کُشد.

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die

من از زنده‌ماندن می‌ترسم و از مُردن هم.

And if life is pain then I buried mine

و اگر زندگانی درد است،من زندگیم را به خاک سپرده‌ام،

a long time ago

خیلی وقت پیش؛

But it's still alive

اما هنوز زنده‌است.

And it's taking over me where am I?

و آن مرا بیش‌تر از جایی که هستم میبرد؟

I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside

من میخواهم چیزی را حس کنم،من در درون بی‌حس‌ام.

But I feel nothing, I wonder why

اما من هیچی حس نمیکنم.از خودم میپرسم به چه دلیل؟

And on the race of life time passes by

و در مسابقه زندگی زمان میگذرد.

Look

نگاه کن!

I sit back and I watch it

من عقب کشیده‌ام و نگاهشان میکنم.

hands in my pockets

[درحالی‌که] دستهایم در جیبهایم [است].

Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em

امواج می‌آیند و از بالای من سقوط میکنند اما من فقط نگاهشان میکنم.

I just watch 'em

من فقط نگاهشان میکنم.

I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it

من زیر آبم اما احساس میکنم روی آنم.

I'm at the bottom and I don’t know what the problem is

من در ته آنم و نمیدانم مشکل چیست.

I'm in a box

من در یک جعبه‌ام،

But I’m the one who locked me in

اما من کسی هستم که خودم را در آن زندانی کرده‌ام.

Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen

خفه میشوم و بدون اکسیژن به آخر میرسد.

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

Where are my feelings?

احساساتم کجایند؟

I no longer feel things

دیگر چیزی را حس نمیکنم.

I know I should

میدانم که باید.

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده ام.

Where is the real me?

منِ حقیقی کجاست؟

I’m lost and it kills me inside

من گمشده‌ام و این مرا از درون میکشد.

I'm paralyzed

(I'm just so paralyzed)

من فلج شده‌ام.

(من فقط خیلی فلج شده‌ام.)

Where are my feelings?

(yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)

احساساتم کجایند؟

(آره،من فقط خیلی فلج شده‌ام.)

I no longer feel things

(I have no feelings)

دیگر چیزی را حس نمیکنم.

(من هیچ احساسی ندارم.)

I know I should

(oh how come I’m not moving why aren’t I moving ay yeah)

میدانم که باید [احساسی داشته باشم]

(اوه چطور شد که دیگر حرکت نمیکنم؟ چرا حرکت نمیکنم؟)

I'm paralyzed

من فلج شده‌ام.

Where is the real me?

(where is the real me, where is the real me?)

من حقیقی کجاست؟

(من حقیقی کجاست؟ من حقیقی کجاست؟ )

I'm lost and it kills me inside

(I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)

من گمشده‌ام و این مرا از درون می‌کُشد.

I'm paralyzed

(I'm paralyzed)

من فلج ‌شده‌ام.

(من فلج شده‌ام.)